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In Which A Book Materializes

September 12th, 2009

So I am doing it. After many years of talking about it and thinking about it and starting and stopping, I am actually going to do it. Hopefully it will be put together in the next 6 months. The reasons for doing this are completely selfish but as with anything I put out in public (either here on my blog, on my Geeky Pleasures site or my radio show) I do it because I like it. I do not do it for other people’s approval. If people choose to enjoy it with me that is awesome and I so appreciate it so please do not get me wrong there. And it always suprises me when I find out people enjoy the crap I put out. Thank you for allowing me to share with you and taking this life journey with me.

What is this book? Please read the introduction below. The working title of the book (it may change) is From the Mundane to the Insane: A Wonderful Journey Without A Destination.

Inspiration comes in waves. Sometimes it can come from moments of joy. For me, some of my greatest moments of inspiration come from moments of sadness. Tonight is one of those moments.
Over the years, I have been told many times I should right a book. The reason for this is because I have inspired many and they feel my story would inspire many others and give them hope. The inspiration I have brought to those who know me come from places of sadness as well. This inspiration comes from the many struggles and adversities I have overcome in my life: how I grew up in a very dysfunctional family, lived on the streets, was placed in foster care, survived a very abusive marriage, battled lupus, survived a stroke, raised two children on my own and even so I had moments of rage, I never let it get me down. I have always kept an upbeat attitude. I have done some pretty awesome things with my life that some only dream about. I have lived my life with the motto there is always someone who is worse off than me. And if I can show even just one person they can go through shit and still go on to do great things no matter what odds are stacked against them, then my life meant something.
So I decided years ago I would write a book. I have started and stopped more times than I can count because I never knew what I was going to write. What I did know was that it would be a series of short stories. I have notepad upon notepad, word file upon word file of these short stories but nothing I thought book or publication worthy.
Then tonight it happened. I had one of the hardest conversations ever with my oldest that brought me to tears for hours. As a result, I know what I am going to write. This book will be primarily for my children. Because I have lupus, I will be lucky to see 60 unless there are some drastic changes to the treatment of lupus. I want my children to have something, that heaven forbid I die soon rather than later, they can remember me by. I want them to have something permanent which shows them who their mother was (the good and the bad, the happy and the sad) and how much she loved them. Something they can carry with them forever and ever and remember always always. And maybe just maybe in the process I will be able to touch others.
Inside these pages you will find writings from many sources. Some from my various blogs, some from poetry that I have never published and some stories that I will create as I go through this process. If you are reading this book, I want to thank you in advance for taking this journey with me and my children.
Julia “Jules” Sherred
September 12, 2009
Duncan, BC

Inspiration comes in waves. Sometimes it can come from moments of joy. For me, some of my greatest moments of inspiration come from moments of sadness. Tonight is one of those moments.

Over the years, I have been told many times I should write a book. The reason for this is because I have inspired many and they feel my story would inspire many others and give them hope. The inspiration I have brought to those who know me come from places of sadness as well. This inspiration comes from the many struggles and adversities I have overcome in my life: how I grew up in a very dysfunctional family, lived on the streets, was placed in foster care, survived a very abusive marriage, battled lupus, survived a stroke, raised two children on my own and even so I had moments of rage, I never let it get me down. I have always kept an upbeat attitude. I have done some pretty awesome things with my life that some only dream about. I have lived my life with the motto there is always someone who is worse off than me. And if I can show even just one person they can go through shit and still go on to do great things no matter what odds are stacked against them, then my life meant something.

So I decided years ago I would write a book. I have started and stopped more times than I can count because I never knew what I was going to write. What I did know was that it would be a series of short stories. I have notepad upon notepad, word file upon word file of these short stories but nothing I thought book or publication worthy.

Then tonight it happened. I had one of the hardest conversations ever with my oldest that brought me to tears for hours. As a result, I know what I am going to write. This book will be primarily for my children. Because I have lupus, I will be lucky to see 60 unless there are some drastic changes to the treatment of lupus. I want my children to have something, that heaven forbid I die sooner rather than later, they can remember me by. I want them to have something permanent which shows them who their mother was (the good and the bad, the happy and the sad) and how much she loved them. Something they can carry with them forever and ever and remember always always. And maybe just maybe in the process I will be able to touch others.

Inside these pages you will find writings from many sources. Some from my various blogs, some from poetry that I have never published and some stories that I will create as I go through this process. If you are reading this book, I want to thank you in advance for taking this journey with me and my children.

Julia “Jules” Sherred

September 12, 2009

Duncan, BC

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Raging Against Lupus

September 12th, 2009

Dear Lupus,

Lupus I hate you! And not because you are ravaging my body but because you are destroying my children! I am currently in tears because my children are in constant fear that you are going to kill me and I was just served with a quick reminder of this.

My children have still not recovered from the emotional trauma they endured when I had my stroke three years ago. Thanks to you, my non-existing immune system and being on immuno-suppressants, I contracted the dreaded H1N1. A lot of people may think “it’s just the flu” and no big deal, but for me it is. And for my children, it is even a bigger deal. Thank bob, the doctors diagnosed me early enough and I was put on Tamiflu. However, this does not put my children’s fears to rest.

It breaks my heart to no end (after I tried very hard for my oldest to not find out I have H1N1 but due to the lovely thing called the internet, he found out while he was at his dad’s) when I receive the following email from Kid1:

Kid1: um u have the swine flu

Me: yes I do

Kid1: um will u live?…dont lie…

Me: I should live hun. They have me on heavy duty meds to treat it. Try not to worry too much.

I love you

Kid1: no freekin duh im going to worry u have like no immune system and ur my mother..i love u to

Me: Well I should be okay. They were able to get me the medication in time. I just have to rest more than the normal person and have to stay quarantined longer

I should not be having these conversations with my 14 year old! It breaks my heart and I cannot stop crying because of it. Please just go away! I cannot wait for the day when they come closer to approving new medications to shoot you dead. You are ruining my children’s lives. Did I tell you I hate you because of it?

With much loathing,

Jules

(Please read the following post I wrote regardling living with lupus” Putting A Face To Lupus: The Elephant In The Room http://juliasherred.com/blog/2009/07/putting-a-face-to-lupus-the-elephant-in-the-room/ There are other posts regarding lupus as well that you can find in the lupus catagory if you are interested)

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