I’ve never had a Lent kick my butt before. Yes, it has always been extremely difficult but I’ve never failed at my self-imposed challenge.
Today, I failed, not once, not twice but a total of 3 times! Not even 8 hours into Lent and I swore. The ridiculous thing about it, I was asleep for just over 7 of those 8 hours. The first infraction occurred at 7:54 am PST. I swore in an email to the General Manager at the station because he was teasing Trekkies and I had not even had my first cup of coffee nor was I fully awake yet. My statement was, “It is too early for this [word redacted]. I haven’t even had my coffee yet.” It took me nearly 3 minutes after I hit submit on the email to realise what I had done.
First lesson of Lent: Do read nor respond to emails for the next 45 days until I’ve had at least two cup of coffee in me.
The second infraction occurred when I was editing an image for Geeky Pleasures and the program crashed before I could save it. I uttered a very loud profanity at my computer. I had tweeted asking, “If I swear and no-one is around to hear it, am I breaking Lent?” (or something similar to that). Then I thought, wait a minute, no-one was going to know about me! This is twice now you’ve ratted yourself out! Damn you and your honesty! (However, the GM may find out about my fast eventually and I’d get called out on it but… *sigh*).
No sooner do I tweet about my second infraction, does one of my followers tweet to me. Her tweet contained a swear. I RT’d it. Not only did I RT the swear (some said it wouldn’t count as I didn’t say it, but..) but I added “LM*AO” before the swear and the missing letter is a swear, intend was to swear and I failed again. I was immediately called on it. I was asked, “Doesnt tweeting swears count?” Yes. Yes, it does.
All of this was within 4 hours of being awake. I may have even uttered other profanities under my breathe throughout the day and not even realised it as I do not come to realise it (even in type as demonstrated this morning) until well after the fact.
It was suggested I add another day to Lent. I may just do that. I’m not quite sure. All I’m sure about right now as this is proving to be much more difficult than I had originally thought.
However, today was filled with a day where many things caused me to want to swear. I am not a happy camper today. I can’t even discuss completely openly why that is without a bunch of people wanting to poop down my throat for inserting some reality into their lives.
I just hope that today was the first and last fails. I’ll admit, I’m a little bit discouraged at the moment. I’m feeling as if I bit off more than I can chew. But I believe I can do this… maybe. I think people are having more confidence in me than I am at the moment. I really do not do well when I fail at something and it takes quite a bit to rebuild my confidence.
I suppose we’ll just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings.